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  She moaned, and, on her belly, lowered her face to the floor. Her tongue was small, and lovely. Trained, it might do well on a man’s body.

  “Are you finished?” I asked her, after a time.

  “Yes,” she whispered, in her chains, on her belly, looking up at me.

  “Rejoice that you are a free woman, and not a slave,” I said. “Had you been a slave, you might have been killed for what you did earlier.”

  She was silent.

  “Do you understand?” I asked.

  “Yes,” she said.

  “Approach me, on your belly,” I said.

  She squirmed to the table, her hands still behind her.

  I then reached behind her and drew the wrist chain down and, forcing her legs tightly back against her body, put it back in front of her legs. It was then as it had been before. I let her straighten her legs.

  “When you bring the check,” I said, “do so in your teeth.”

  She looked at me, angrily.

  “And on all fours,” I said.

  “On all fours!” she cried.

  “Yes,” I said.

  “I am a free woman!” she said.

  “Do you understand?” I asked.

  “Yes!” she said.

  “The check is to be paid, or put on the bill, I gather, at the keeper’s desk,” I said. One had to pass the keeper’s desk after leaving the paga room. That arrangement, I supposed, was no accident. For example, it would save the posting of one employee, which was perhaps a calculated economy on the part of the proprietor. I would not have put it past him, at any rate. Too, in virtue of this arrangement, one need not entrust coins to debtor sluts, slaves, and such. In this house I suspected that they would not be permitted to so much as touch a coin. They would be kept “coinless,” absolutely.

  “Yes,” she said.

  “Do you wish to say anything?” I asked.

  “I hate you! I hate you!” she said.

  “You may, after performing obeisance, withdraw,” I said.

  Swiftly she performed obeisance, and then rose to her feet, and, moving carefully, with small steps, as she could, hurried to the kitchen.

  I would finish my bread, and nurse the paga for a time, and then retire to my space. It was in the south wing, on the third level, space 97. I would pick up the ostrakon, with the blankets, at the keeper’s desk. I wondered how I might approach Ar’s Station and deliver the message of Gnieus Lelius, the regent of Ar, to the commander at Ar’s Station, Aemilianus. If I appeared to be of Ar, I might fall afoul of Cosians. If I appeared to be with Cos I might have considerable difficulty in approaching the defenders of Ar’s Station. Still I must do something soon. The siege at Ar’s Station, I had gathered, might be approaching a critical juncture.

  As I pondered these matters the door to the paga room burst open and the fellow, fierce and bearded, who had been in the baths now appeared, in the uniform of the company of Artemidorus of Cos, which, indeed, I had supposed must be his. He wore his sword, on its strap over the left shoulder. This is common among Gorean warriors, though not on the march nor in tarnflight. In this arrangement the sword may be unsheathed and the scabbard and strap discarded in one movement. He carried his helmet and the intriguing pouch which had caught my attention earlier, that which he had carried with him even in the room of the baths.

  I did not meet the fellow’s eyes, not wanting to explore the consequences of a confrontation. I supposed I should permit myself, if the occasion arose, to be bullied and humiliated, that I might not risk complications or delay in my mission. Still, I am not always as rational as I might be, and if he threatened or challenged me, I was not at all certain that I could summon the concealments and coolness necessary to endure abuse. I am upon occasion too hot-headed, too quick to act, too ready to respond to any insult or slight, real or imagined. It is doubtless one of many faults. Perhaps I should be more like a Dietrich of Tarnburg, who might dissemble plausibly, and then, later, when it suited his convenience, and if it fitted into his plans, make his kills. I did not raise my eyes but appeared to be concerned with the paga. I heard him make a sound of contempt. I wondered if he noted that my hand closed more tightly upon the base of the kantharos. I should try to control that. I think I myself might have noticed it, in the movement of the upper arm. He stood there, a few feet away. I began to feel insulted. Heat rose in my body. I controlled myself. Surely that is what Dietrich of Tarnburg would have done. I did not look up. Warriors, of course, are trained to rely upon peripheral vision. If he approached me too closely, coming within a predetermined critical distance, I could dash the paga upward into his eyes and wrench the table up and about, plunging one of the legs into his diaphragm. Then in a moment I could have him under my foot or upon my sword. Some authorities recommend breaking the kantharos into shards on the face, taking the target above the bridge of the nose with the rim. This can be even more dangerous with a metal goblet. Many civilians, I believe, do not know why certain warriors, by habit, request their paga in metal goblets when dining in public houses. They regard it, I suppose, as an eccentricity. I heard him make another sound of contempt, and then he strode away, toward another table. He was still alive. I wondered what was in the pouch.

  I took another sip of paga.

  The fellow, I noted, had taken one of the larger tables, a double table, for himself. To be sure, the paga room was not crowded. He and I were the only customers at this hour. I had taken a small table near the wall. The small table does not encourage the approach of strangers. Its location, too, was not an accident. It permits one to survey the entire room, including the entrance, and, too, to have the wall at one’s back.

  He smote twice on the surface of his table. It leapt under his blows! “Waitress!” he called. “Waitress!”

  I heard the swinging of the kitchen door and a sound of chain. The Lady Temione came forth. I would have to admit that she was pretty, in the half light, in her chains. She had apparently cleaned herself, or had been cleaned, perhaps having her head and upper body thrust into a washing tub. There was no sign now, at any rate, of the porridge in her hair, or about her face, neck, shoulders and breasts. She cast an angry look at me. I was still nursing the paga. I even had some bread left.

  She hurried to the newcomer.

  It seemed for a moment she was going to request his order on her feet, almost as though in defiance, but then, looking back at me, she suddenly knelt and performed obeisance and then knelt back on her heels, in a waitress’s proper deference, to receive the orders of the keeper’s customer.

  I took another sip of paga. She would, of course, have to return to my table, eventually, to bring the check. Perhaps that was why she chose to observe the waitress’s proper forms. To be sure, the waitresses in Gorean paga rooms, and such, are usually slaves. Still, it did not seem inappropriate that she, too, should perform suitable service at table. She was, after all, a debtor slut. Perhaps she thought that I might beat her, or have her beaten, if she omitted these courtesies, particularly after I had taken the time to explain them to her. In this, of course, she was correct.

  The fellow was looking at her, narrowly, in the half light. She shrank back under that gaze. Then he rose to his feet and went to crouch near her. He touched her about the neck. Then, literally moving her about, his hands on her knees, he examined her thighs. Then, standing, he pulled her half to her feet, by the upper arms.

  “Where is your collar?” he demanded. “Where is your brand?”

  “I am free!” she wept.

  He then shook her, angrily, like a doll. Her head jerked back and forth. I was afraid, for a moment, that her neck might break.

  “Where is your collar, your brand?” he cried.

  “I am free!” she wept. “I am free!”

  “Bring me a woman!” he cried toward the kitchen, still holding her helplessly before him. “Bring me a woman!”

  “What is wrong?” asked a fellow, looking out from the kitchen, probably the night cook.

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nbsp; “Where is the keeper!” cried the fellow.

  “He has retired,” said the fellow.

  “This thing is free!” cried the fellow, giving the Lady Temione another shake. “How dare you send it to my table! I do not want it! Send me a female! Send me a woman!” He then hurled the Lady Temione from him and, with a rattle of chains, she struck the floor. There, terrified, feet from him, she lay on her belly. I was amused to see her lift herself slightly, surely not even aware of what she was doing, a natural female appeasement behavior in the face of male anger. I thought she would do well in a collar. Then, as though she might suddenly have understood what she was doing, she lowered herself as flat to the tiles as she could, trembling with fear and shame. She looked at me, wildly, hoping I had not noticed her behavior. I smiled, and she sobbed. Her womanhood, suddenly emergent in her fear, had been observed. The newcomer, as nearly as I could tell, had taken no note of these things.

  “Immediately, Sir!” called the fellow from the kitchen door. “In but a moment, Sir!” Then he called to the Lady Temione. “Quick,” he cried, “back to the kitchen, slut! No! Do not rise! Crawl!” He then disappeared back through the kitchen door. The Lady Temione paused near my table, on all fours. She looked at me. She had been rejected by a man, thrown from him, in disgust. I saw that she was stunned, that she was confused, that she was bewildered. Many free women regard themselves, without justification, as marvelous prizes. It can come as a great shock to them to suddenly realize they are, for most practical purposes, worthless. This rejection had shaken her profoundly. Like many free women she probably regarded herself as inordinately attractive. Yet how could that be? The slave in her had not yet been released. It was still in its inward shackles. Not yet had it been freed, summoned forth to the liberations of service and love. Suddenly, perhaps for the first time, she doubted her desirability. She looked at me, piteously, beggingly. She wanted some reassurance from me that she might be at least a little bit desirable or attractive. “Check,” I told her, “and as you are.” I then indicated, with a gesture of my finger, that she should proceed on her way. Sobbing, slowly, as she could, in her chaining, she took her way from the room. She had scarcely attained the kitchen door before another woman emerged, swiftly, yet gracefully, drawing a diaphanous silken wrap about her. How she moved! There was a close-fitting collar on her neck. How beautiful she was! What bondage does for a woman! She hurried to the fellow and bellied to him. Immediately he seemed mollified. I felt my fingernails scratch on the lacquer on the table. That must be one of the keeper’s best girls, I thought. Indeed, perhaps she was the keeper’s preferred slave, sent by him to the customer from his own furs.

  I then sopped the last of the bread in the bottom of the kantharos.

  Now, emerging from the kitchen, came the Lady Temione, on all fours, as I had commanded. From her mouth, on its looped string, dangled the small, closed, hinged, wooden, waxed tablet which would contain the bill. These tablets, and tablets of these sorts, which sometimes have several divisions, and fold up, are often used on Gor for drafts, note taking, temporary tallyings, children’s lessons, and such. They contain one or more waxed surfaces which are written on by a stylus. The smaller ones open like flat books, not roll books, and may be closed with tiny latches, or tied shut.

  There was a small sound as the small wooden tablet, on its string, touched the floor near the table, as the Lady Temione put down her head, doing obeisance. Then, lifting her head, crawling, she approached the table, and placed the tablet on the table.

  I looked over to the table where the newcomer was. He had now pulled the slave to him and thrown her on her belly over the table.

  “Disgusting,” said the Lady Temione.

  “An attractive slave,” I commented. The girl was now gasping and clinging to the table. He was not being gentle with her. But then, of course, she was only a slave.

  “Disgusting,” said the Lady Temione.

  “He may be something of a boor, but he seems to caress well,” I said.

  The girl was now gasping with love noises.

  “I would not know anything about that,” she said, acidly.

  Yet I noted she did not take her eyes from the abused slave.

  “Would you like to be subject to such uses?” I asked.

  “No!” she said. “No! No!”

  The sudden, tense, almost hysterical ardor of her denial spoke of truths, and needs, and depths within her of the existence of which she must be only too keenly aware, and yet truths, depths and needs which, for some reason or another, she seemed almost tragically desperate to conceal and deny, perhaps mostly from herself. I thought she might serve well herself, on such a table. I recalled that she had chosen to live dangerously, relying much on duping men to make her way through the world. Surely she must have realized that there were dangers in practicing such a livelihood. Not all men are fools. Was she, perhaps unbeknownst to herself, in these peregrinations, truly, searching for a man, or men, who were not, men who would simply take her in hand and give her what she deserved, desired, and needed, her total subjugation?

  I picked up the small, closed tablet on the table, unlatched it and examined the amount. It was correct, bread and paga, two copper tarsks, the other food, an additional three.

  I then glanced again at the Lady Temione. She had a beautiful face. The auburn hair was certainly attractive. She had good flanks, not a bad belly, and lovely breasts. To be sure, she needed diet, exercise and discipline. Those things, too, besides improving her appearance, would considerably increase her sexual needs. Yes, she was beautiful. Many of the women of Cos are beautiful. We enjoy them in Port Kar. She was aroused, to the extent she could be, as a free woman, in watching the taking of the slave. To be sure, she had been given little choice in this. For example, she had been stripped and chained, and put to the tables. I had seen to it that she had performed obeisance before men. Too, she had been made to crawl in the presence of men, and had been made to bring the bill in her teeth. Such things work their effects on women, even free women.

  I closed the tablet and latched it.

  The slave on the table gasped, used, serving, clinging to its edges.

  The bearded fellow, holding her, was then still for a moment.

  “She is moving!” said the Lady Temione, scandalized.

  “Yes,” I said, “she is cooperating in what is being done.”

  “Terrible!” whispered the Lady Temione.

  “Perhaps she is responding to instructions,” I said.

  “Instructions!” she said.

  “Of course,” I said. I wondered if the free woman really thought that the subjection of slaves to orders ended with such matters as cooking and cleaning, the polishing of leather, and such, and that they would not be similarly subject to orders, and also absolutely, where the intimate, marvelous, precious, private, delicious realms of the furs were concerned. Indeed, some think it is most pleasant to command the slave in such places, a couching chamber, a room of submission, a raping cubicle, and so on.

  The bearded fellow drew back for a moment.

  The girl clutched the table. She was still for a moment or two. Then she moaned. Then she moved.

  “Did you see that!” she said. “She actually lifted herself to him!”

  “Surely only a slave would so lift herself to a male,” I said.

  The Lady Temione blushed, hotly.

  “Look at that slut wriggle!” she said.

  “She is afraid she may not have been fully pleasing,” I said. “She is trying now to interest him, to be pleasing, to entice him. But I think he is not angry with her. I think he is only playing with her, only teasing her.” I wondered how the Lady Temione would wriggle.

  “Look!” said the Lady Temione.

  “He is now again with her,” I said.

  “Yes!” she said.

  “Yes,” I agreed. The slave was indeed beautiful. To ground my emotion, so to speak, I gripped the table. It seemed thusly, interestingly, as though my t
ension might pass through it then, down to the floor, to be dissipated, like a flood. I kept myself from breaking wood from the table.

  “Am I attractive?” asked the Lady Temione.

  “Yes,” I said.

  “Ah!” she said.

  “—as free women go,” I added.

  “Sleen!” she sobbed. “Sleen!”

  The slave now moaned and whimpered, and then cried out, suddenly, as though momentarily frightened, or alarmed, but then, again, in a moment, understanding what was going to be done to her, that to which she was relentlessly being brought, began to cry out softly, gladly, gratefully, eagerly, anticipatingly.

  “Why does that girl reveal her emotions like that?” asked Lady Temione.

  “Perhaps she is forbidden to conceal them,” I said.

  “Oh!” she said. “How naked that would make a woman.”

  “Yes,” I said, “but it also, in its way, makes her free.”

  “I suppose so,” she said, enviously.

  Suddenly the girl on the table screamed aloud, again and again, half reared up, began to buck, but could not escape, so tightly and helplessly held she was, uttering the word “Master!” over and over.

  “Slave orgasm has been forced upon her,” I commented.

  Lady Temione quivered in her chains.

  “I suspect he will not even have to pay for that use of her,” I said. “It will probably be given to him, as a token of good will, in compensation for his earlier disappointment.”

  “In compensation for his disappointment with me,” she said, bitterly.

  “Yes,” I said.

  “I do not care,” she said.

  “I understand,” I said.

  “I am a free woman!” she said.

  “I see,” I said.

  “Look at that slave,” she said. “How degraded she is!”

  The fellow had resumed his place now behind the table, sitting there, cross-legged, but he had permitted the slave to half lie, half sit, by him, holding to him, her arms about his waist, her head and hair at his side.

  “How pleased I am,” she said, “that I am not a woman such as that!”